A Letter From A Meth User's Friend
We have all heard the saying "you can't help who you fall in love with." I now know this to be true. I met my true love about a year ago. The problem is that he is in love with Meth. He's even referred to it as his girlfriend. I guess at that time you would call him a "functioning addict." He had an intense hunger for life and to live his life to the fullest.
Unfortunatley this hunger is what led him to this drug. He believes he has a hold of his addiction and that it lets him accomplish things he could never do before. What he doesn't see is that it has also been slowly dissolving his relationships with former girlfriends, family members and friends. In the past six months he has lost his hunger for life, but increased his hunger for meth. He currently doesn't have a job or have a desire to find one. Recently he has made the decision to quit. He is going to try to do it on his own, meaning without professional support. I am going to stick this out with him as long as he will let me. It's hard to watch someone you love go through so much and not be able to help. There are times when I do feel trapped and wonder why I couldn't meet a "normal" boy and live the fairy tale life. Unfortunately he would have nowhere to go without me . I can honestly say that I wouldn't choose this if I had it to do again and if I could turn off my heart I would. But the reality is that I can't. I can't just turn my head and walk the other way. This would mean I've given up on him and I can't live with that guilt. I am going to fight this with him even if it kills both of us, at least I tried. I hope I will one day get my "fairy tale ending." Unfortunately addiction doesn't only hurt the addicted.